Unfortunately, I suffer from 2 things, or rather from 1 instead.
I have insomnia(right now it's 2am), I tried so hard to sleep, I swear, I really wanna sleep, sometimes no matter how hard I try, I just can't, instead I will suddenly drop dead, or suddenly feel super tired when the clock strikes 3-4am.
You may have seen this photo of me and wonder what was going on.

It was first back in secondary 2 when i noticed something strange, I had problems sleeping at night, no matter how dead tired I am, I will only sleep exactly around 4am.
And this brings me to a another thing why i hate telling my parents things, THEY NEVER BELIEVE ANYTHING.
and that too brings me back to one of the most serious case i had, I had a crack in my ass, I just kept trying to convince them to bring me to the hospital, I told them several times i fell down accidentally by myself and might have broke my tailbone BEFORE physical lesson(cracked it during recess time when i fell), but guess what? only 3days later they bought me to the hospital for a x-ray scan.
Suddenly in the hospital a male nurse, came and attended to me, and asked me questions
"was your PE teacher forcing you to run?" Me: No
"Did your PE teacher scold you?" Me: No
and more of the "did-u-get-tortured" questions was shot at me.
Till i got so frustrated that I scolded my parents(YES i do remember)
"I TOLD YOU I FELL ON MY OWN, DURING RECESS, WHY WON'T YOU BELIEVE ME"
and later I was given a prostate exam, yes, the doc's hand went into my ass to check it out, They still don't think that I know that my tailbone cracked.(I've learned about most parts of the human body before anyone else did, thanks to Discovery channel)
and when my X-ray was done
Guess what they found.
A CRACK ON MY TAILBONE, I told them consistently for 3days, before i get a chance to have it checked, at least seeing the doctor helped, A Lot. I was given really kickass painkillers and lots of bottled medicine to grow back the bones. and of course, the doctor gave me a float to sit on, and i had to bring it to school.
And that, Is what i guess made "rebel" part of me, because my parents don't trust me.
Still they don't learn.
For my insomnia case, I first detected it in secondary 2, in july, When for weeks I couldn't sleep normally, and had skipped school for days. I told my parents, I really can't sleep, I'm tired, BUT I CAN'T SLEEP, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BELIEVE ME.
And for months my school attendance dropped drastically, my grades fell, and yes I did fail secondary 3, but I was still promoted anyways.
It was only more than half a year's persuasion with my parent's, that they brought me to the hospital for a check up, I stayed in the sleeping lab.

And so they wired me up with all the gizmos, heartbeat detectors, brainwave scanners.
And of course, Checking my blood sugar levels that might be affecting my sleep.

I'm kind of glad that I had a result of
"Positive Insomnia"
in my medical exam letter, even till this day, I still suffer from it, nothing I tried worked so far.
The next day I slammed it to my teacher when I came late for school. As they told me they were considering on expelling me because of my poor attendance.
Look, I had a problem, I knew what it was, I knew what was wrong with me. If only parent's could trust their kids more, If only.
If you're a parent yourself, Please don't make the same mistake as my parents did, I have grudges too deep to be forgotten, Because of distrust, Thanks be to parent's blocked ears.Oh yeah, I now know I have a high possibility of having ADD too, I'm strongly suspecting, many things happened.
Blogged about it few weeks backI was just at the kitchen, I took a glass of water into my room, next moment I when I checked, it was still in the kitchen, as in the glass.
Question is, Did I drink the water? Or did I finished it and took it back to the kitchen table and left it there? I wish I can remember.
Many times I forget things in an instance.
Another case i can remember was when in my physics class on thursday.
"Cher, What's R representing?"
he said some stuff, and I understood.
Next moment, I was looking at the paper again, and I can't remember what R is representing, I knew I had asked, But, Why did I forget about it just right after my teacher told me?
I have short attention all the time, I tend to change lots of topics, I have a hard time on concentrating on things most of the time, even when I'm blogging now, I would probably surf the web a little, and when I close that tab/window, And that moment I see this, Then I would continue blogging.
I really wish I can be cured of my insomnia, I'm ok with ADD, in fact most famous funny people have ADD, bet you didn't know that.
It's almost 3, I'm gonna off my mac and try to sleep. Will be meeting Omy.sg tomorrow morning. Hopefully I won't wake up at 12noon exactly just like any other day.
*update* oh yeah, I forgot to mention about the crack in the ass happened back in primary 5, and for 2 months i had to wear a float to school, you do know that all bone injuries take 2months right?
And i guess this late update is ADD in action.